yang jauh asyik terkenang...

semua akan menjadi susah kalau kita fikir susah

tapi tidak juga semua akan menjadi senang kalau kita fikir senang TANPA tindakan lanjut ke arah itu....

kesimpulannya...apa2 perkara yang kita inginkan...harus disertai dengan usaha

terus terang saya katakan...

i'm dying to go to Japan...TO FURTHER MY STUDY....not to just going holidays or going to Arashi's concert or just to buy the au KDDi phone (they're damn adorable!)

i really want to feel the student's life at Japan...maybe because i was influenced by many Japan's dramas, reading blogs of those who are studying there and have a contact too with some of them...

they make it sounds easy but the fact that you really need a big determination and great efforts, only you can survive happily not only at Japan but the same goes to other countries....

i love making contact with those who have same interest with me...even we never meet face to face...they're all very kind people, give guides about the procedure..their own experience and everything....some of them have already been in Japan for about several years, maybe only arrive there couple of months ago or even those who are still waiting for the confirmation....its fun to have all these 'online' connection....

the truth is, i already searching for the placement...by starting with the good university that provide the course and professors with the research that i'm interested in...
but one thing bothered me.....
all the short-listed place and several names with great research that comes into mind....
its only me....who still not moving even one step closer to the mission....
i never have the coursge to contact the professor....
i never have the courage to show them my bad undergrad's result....
and i never have the courage that i can impressed them with my work plan.....

all that...is only make me looking like a fool....
doing the same works (looking for universities' homepage) every day....

maybe i should start for real this time....
set my goal and the chance is only right in front of me....
(the same things i repeat everytime i'm in down state like now)