Friday, March 25, 2011

CAKAP tidak serupa BIKIN

okeh
entry bukan untuk mengutuk sesiapa
kalau ada yang ingin dikutuk pun adalah aku sendiri
ini lebih berupa analisa
sedang mengelamun tadi tiba2 boleh ter'kelamun' (eh.) pasal ni
banyak kali dalam hidup aku ni cakap lain, buat lain
tapi aku rasa mostly manusia memang macam tu la
kadang2 kita tend to speak based on our emotion at that time
so ketidaksehaluan dalam perkataan dan perbuatan tu memang something yang expected

situasi pertama masa first time makan old town kopitiam di 1 Borneo
aku cakap dengan yakin 'aku xkan masuk kedai ni lagi'
ni cerita masa keluar beronggeng dengan kawan2 di malam minggu
biasala kan orang muda ni, lagi2 kalau memang jenis yang suka makan macam kami ni
xkan la asal keluar mesti KFC,McD,PIZZA...bosan la kan
so tryla Old Town Kopitiam ni
ambient cam ok...sesuaila untuk lepak2 sambil tunggu makanan
tengok menu mcm sedap ja semua so aku order laksa, kopi old town dan french toast (mmg pelik mkn french toast mlm2 tapi peduli la kan...lapar.)
laksa sampai,tengok kaler pucat...rasa lagi ya rabbi...bagus lagi makan megi kari
memang tawar...then tryla french toast...aduh...ni lagi 1
peanut butter tebal gila sampai kelat rasa mulut aku makan
kesimpulannya, air ja habis...yang 2 lagi tu hanya pembaziran
laksa x sampai separuh pun aku makan
sebab tu la aku konon2 berjanji xkan masuk situ lagi...everything fail!
but 2nd time masuk masa x ramai orang...order french toast lagi
eh?sedap pula....lain dari yang dulu
mungkin dulu ramai orang tu sebab rasa agak kurang..mau cepatlah katakan
ataupun dia tambah sesuatu sebab aku bising makanan lambat sampai...??

pasal diet....ni eerrr...x perlu lah aku ulas banyak
paham2 je la yerrrr~~~~
malam ni aku berazam esok x mau makan nasi
esoknya...pagi,tengahari ja x makan nasi...malam habis...bantai semua
x makan satu hari la katakan...kesian perut aku menderita
tambah2 kalau aku xmakan parents mesti bising..especially bapa aku
takut betul dia aku ni kurus dan di'urat' oleh lelaki2 mata keranjang...auuwww~

cuci kain
ni memang aku x boleh elak
banyak2 kerja dalam dunia...cuci kain,jemur kain,ambil kain,lipat kain,iron baju adalah benda yang aku sangat 10000xxxxx malas mau buat
apa2 jenis kerja yang melibatkan kain.just name it.serious.
xtaula...kena sumpahan kali.hakhak.karut
tapi memang..kalau aku cakap 'okeh,esok mau cuci baju'
tunggula sampai next week,memang baju2 kotor tu xkan berubah tempat
sampaila stok baju habis then barula kelam kabut p cuci
itu baru cuci....lipatnya...kena tunggu next next week lagi
sampailah baju yang x kena lipat tu habis aku pakai semua
macam tu la life cycle baju2 aku (heh~patut ko single sampai sekarang shida)

lastly...kerja (isu sensitip memang kena last2)
after practical di jabatan pertanian dulu aku suda simpan azam yang kalau boleh aku x mau bergantung sangat dengan kerja dengan government sector awal2 ni
no offense.just personal thoughts.
masa tu memang azam betul2
tapi last2...apply juga spa 8.okla...xpa...apply ja
sebab parents pun asyik tanya so apply ja without much expectation
bila orang lain dapat interview aku x dapat,frust juga.padan muka kan.
tapi xpa...pujuk hati cakap 'sebab aku memang xmau so Tuhan bagi rezeki tu dengan orang yang lebih sesuai'
then ikut BeST ni...dapat praktikal di jabatan pertanian juga
masa ni memang aku rasa SHIT! DAMN! BAKA! CHIKUSHO! KILL!KILL! DIE!DIE!
sebab ini bukan salah aku!
ini salah pengurusan. BODOH punya lelaki
memang x pandai buat kerja...bukan mau merendah2kan
tapi sepatutnya kalau ikut BeST, masa praktikal tu seboleh2nya cari tempat yang ada possibility untuk diserap kerja terus.
okey,kami cari...macam mau gila cari tempat praktikal
last2....satu pun x dapat...alasan...x respon dari kompeni tu
GO TO HELL la!memang la x respon kalau ko x kol BANGANG!
aku mmg ada keraguan dgn org tu dari awal lagi so aku minta utk hntr sendiri application dgn kompeni tu
itupun dia x bagi 'better if i yg handle la kan' MAMPUS ko sana!
baru berapa bulan kerja...fresh grade...umur sama aku....memang x pandai buat kerja
at least aku ni pernah la juga part time di Parkson ngan hotel2...dia ni memang x pengalaman aku rasa....gaya ja lebih.hari2 pakai kot tapi sampai ofis buka juga.ingat sejuk sangat la di ofis ko tu.
last2...dapat praktikal di jabatan pertanian.
itupun bukan dia yang cari...kawan2 kami juga yang cari pastu boleh dia mau sumbat 6,7 org dalam tu
nasibla orang kompeni tu offer kompeni kawan dia sebab kompeni dia pn x mampu sumbat org byk camtu
see???bangang x bangang???orang lain pun tau 6 org praktikal 1 tempat adalah sesuatu yang x sesuai.dia boleh mau sumbat macam tu ja.
itulah habis usaha dia tu....menyumbat.
everyday after aku keluar dari training center tu...aku menyumpah dalam hati semoga dia dipecat satu hari nanti dan tau betapa susahnya cari kerja zaman sekarang ni.
bukan macam dia yang senang2 dapat kerja then bila dapat,x buat bersungguh2.
sangat frust ok kenal orang macam tu.satu penyesalan terbesar dalam sejarah hidup aku


huhhhhhh~
entry suda bertukar menjadi cacian dan makian kepada orang lain
walaupun awal2 tadi aku cakap x berunsur kutukan kepada orang lain tapi.....
kan.....aku memang cakap x serupa bikin




hmmmm...memang plan mau buat entry khas pun pasal kebangangan lelaki tu.

Sunday, March 20, 2011

NAYAMI

reading newspaper everyday is a pain
for a person who make Japan the closest place in heart, it's a pain to watch the suffer
after the first massive quake, I thought everything will be okay but the aftershocks is something not to just look at
children is lost, don't know the exact situation, mother is crying over the family members' death and friends stick together
I just can't stand to watch situations like that

as I said earlier, this can be a wake up call not only for Japan but for all of us
I REALLY can't imagine if something like that happen in Malaysia
how will we react?are we strong enough?
many articles I read point on how the tragedy really showed the color of Japan
how people can still help and encourage each other during times like that
they never give up because they know, as long as they stay positive, work together, everything will be ok...
they don't have anything to believe but their self and the power of together-ness
just imagine during the tough situation, people still line up for the bus, no robbery for the damage shops and no other violence happen
this really open my eyes
I know, pretty well that Japan is a country of peace
everything is according to rule but never did I imagine they still can practice it during disaster like this

I don't intend to compare but just take a look at ourselves right now
we are comfortable enough to live in such a good country
but are we fit enough to ready ourselves from worst time like that?
I can't stop thinking about that because the fact is I'm afraid
afraid of what will happen in the future
the quake has made Japan to move from it's origin
Malaysia or Sabah especially is not far from Japan...anything can happen in a blink of eyes
if God wants it, then it happen

but one thing I know, God tests us based on our strength
He knows the best for us...He give us challenge we can overcome so that we will stay strong and remember Him in any situation

only if they realize this

artists in Japan has started their job this week
everything is already resumed and they are back to work
but I admit that I'm crying as I watched NYC perform as they give their best to support the children especially to stay stronger
Arashi also gave message to the victims, give their condolences and encourage them
at least, they hope to bring smile into their faces
for Japanese people, smile is what you need the most during time like this
because if you smile, even a bit you can feel the energy flowing in your body
if everyone smile, it can be a relief to the others...that's how they support each other


you're disappointed and sobbing, what's wrong?
where is the person who is usually smiling like a sun?
you'll win if you do as you please
whenever times are tough, I'll be besides you

yes, with 100% courage
there's nothing left but to do our best
as we embrace the energy of the entire world
yes, with 100% energy
there's nothing left but to do it properly
never forget the radiance we are holding


even if a lonely night comes
there's sure to be a new morning come to



my deepest condolences to Japan
may they stay tough and together to face this situation
and hope they can become a better nation after this

Sunday, March 13, 2011

dari DIA kita datang....

belum pun habis aku berkabung pasal Jepun (eh...perluka)
harini ada lagi berita sedih yang bertimpa2
mula2 dengar ada orang meninggal kampung sebelah
tapi kubur di kampung kami
sebab kampung sebelah mostly non-muslim so x tanah perkuburan orang islam
budak ni muda lagi...umur 15 tahun...aku x kenal
tapi rasanya convert sebab orang panggil dia Chong/Mary
kesian mak dia aku tengok...mula2 tenang lagi
bila tanah kubur tu hampir penuh orang timbus,tiba2 mak dia meraung
anak tunggal...mana x sedih kan

second...dapat khabar datuk saudara aku pula meninggal
dia memang hari Khamis lagi masuk hospital Queen Elizabeth (hospital besar Sabah)
sempatlah datang melawat petang tu tapi masih belum sedar
tengok keadaan pun memang teruk
dia ada masalah paru-paru dari dulu
banyak kali keluar masuk hospital, pembedahan..kejap ok kejap x
tapi masa ni, doktor cakap paru-paru suda rosak...jantung lagi ada masalah
nenek aku selalu mengharap....masa aku datang melawat pun dia cakap
"dengar pernafasan atuk...ada bunyi kan...ok la sudah maksudnya tu kan..."
aku pun iya kan saja...walaupun tau yang peluang semakin tipis
tapi dalam hati masih berdoa semoga dia dipanjangkan umur

datuk meninggal pagi tadi...
budak perempuan tu semalam
tapi dua2 kena kebumi lepas zuhur dan lepas asar
sangat sedih...aku ni memang jenis yang lemah kalau tengok tanah kubur,dengar orang menangis segala...
tapi aku juga jenis degil...tau lemah, pegi juga tengok...seboklah katakan
tadi sempatlah bacakan yassin dekat jenazah atuk sebelum dan selepas dimandikan
tengok dia dikebumikan...masa ni memang jelas terserlah sifat bizi bodi aku
tepi2 kawasan liang lahad tu semua orang laki
tiba2 aku menyelit sorang pompuan...tukar2 tempat lagi
carik spot paling clear untuk tengok proses....cis.
semoga aku insaf cepat








semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas roh kedua2 mereka
Al-fatihah~

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Jepun tinggal impian...(?)

ni mahu cerita pasal nature disaster di Jepun
mula2 tau pasal ni macam x heran sangat
just fikir 'ala...Jepun..biasala gempa bumi ni semua'
but then...with 8.9 plus tsunami...it's not something usual
then aku start dengar news...tempat2 mana yg terjejas
came in mind Chiba...Tokyo and Chiba are not far from each other and located near sea
masa ni memang confirm Tokyo kena
tapi x dapat online lagi masa tu...sebok dengan hal lain.
so p kerja on radio asyikla pasal gempa bumi
balik malam...tengok news....sangat seram ok
terimbas2 video Ribut Grek di Keningau bertahun2 lama dulu (masa skolah rendah lagi)
dahsyat....kereta, rumah, bangunan, orang...semua hanyut


banyak benda aku ter'imagine'
kalaulah masa tu AKB48 sedang buat persembahan di theater dorang di Akihabara
then tiba2 gempa bumi bangunan runtuh.....
kalaulah tiba2 aku nampak Ohno dihanyutkan ombak
kalaulah aku nampak Aiba yg sedang buat penggambaran Bartender berlarian di tengah jalan yang sedang bergoncang kuat
dan macam2 lagi......

Arashi....selamatkah????
terus buka LJ....tiada post!!tiada confirmation
tengok f-list...tanya kawan2 LJ yg di Jepun
dorang respon ok...so,ok la...
then few minutes later....an update came
Arashi are all safe....Thank God

ekceli...kalau fikir balik kan...bencana2 alam ni sebenarnya amaran Tuhan
untuk mengingatkan kita tentang kekuasaanNya


God gave his little greetings to Japan as a wake up call that they need to build a new nation...with new heart in mind




whatever it is.....Jepun tinggal impian (?)
tidakla.....huahuahua....niat mau sambung study sana x pernah padam
just hope that they recover fast.....dan aku buleh p jalan2 sana
there's a saying from my LJ f-list
"pray for Japan...we hope the sun can rise and shines brightly there again"








kinda amusing that the artists' status in Japan has been updated by their respective companies whether they're ok or not....
because they know....Japan artists can't die....they're the new hope for Japan economy so take a good care of them^^
cuba kalau di Malaysia....ada ko mau peduli siti & datuk K selamat/tidak kalau jadi mcm ni???


edited: feel bad writing like that at time like this